Wrong Blog Name

It’s been a while since I last wrote something because I have been so busy. Yet, today I find myself in a place and time where there is not a whole lot to do and God has been laying it on my heart to write. The Holy Spirit has been hitting me and hitting me below the belt it feels like in the past couple of weeks. I’ve been dealing with a lot, family issues, work issues and just spiritual issues. It’s like Satan and I have been playing a football game and every time I score Satan gets the ball back, hikes it, runs it up the middle and bulldozes me over into the ground. The bad thing about all of it is, even though I have been closer to God than ever I still find myself sitting Him on the bench while I stand and get pushed around.
A good friend of mine wrote on his future wife and the Devine Romance between us and God. It really it home to me, not that I didn’t already know what the Devine Romance was nor that he was longing so much for his future wife. But in his words lied a subliminal message from the Holy Spirit to me. I realize now through the Holy Spirit speaking through him that I have not been acting the same as I should. I have the feelings and the thoughts and as another friend wrote, longing to worship him, so much yet, I have not been very willing to act upon them. I find myself realizing my blog name should not be the way I have written it. Instead it should read “Actions of a Martyr” not “Voice of a Martyr.” I know my last blog really hit on taking actions as people and being persecuted, etc. The Holy Spirit though has been dogging me lately about my title and what it means for me and most of us as Christians in America. We love to hear stories of God’s love and how much people are willing to pay for Him in their lives. It saddens us, yes, but it’s heartwarming for us to think, “I could do that” or “I want to do that, so God give me the opportunity” but the reality is He has been giving us opportunities every single day of our lives as Christians. In the words we speak, in the thoughts we think, in the choices we make, who we give our hearts to, etc. We have opportunities every single day to stand up and speak out, to perform actions that show we can be martyrs for God.
Yet, the chilling fact the Holy Spirit has revealed to me, that like most people, I am not what I say I am. That my blog name IS WRONG, because I should not just be the voice, but the hands and the feet. Yet, until I can truly act on behalf of God that’s all I’ll ever be….a Voice!

Holy Spirit, continue to convict me in the many things I do daily. Keep knocking me in the head, continue to break through my what seems to be hardened heart. Make me and mold me into the man that will be the hands and feet, not just the voice of someone longing to be a martyr. Father God, please be my Rock and my Fortress, so that when I do act and Satan throws me to the ground and I run away scared I can come back to You to rebuild my strength. Give me guidance and peace and a longing to keep going with my worship for you, so that I never am content with where I am in You, but that I accept the fact there is so much of You to learn that I will strive and strive and strive to fill You up inside of me. Finally, Jesus, thank you for riding into town 2008 years ago today and knowing you would die no more than a week later for my and everyone else’s sins. For without You I would still be nothing, I would still be dead. But, I AM ALIVE BECAUSE YOU ARE ALIVE IN ME!! I love You and praise You. Amen!